aaah!CAPELLA was an attempt to make my DREAMS come true.
DRAGOPOLIS was a desperate selfish stubborn stab at some financial security. I thought bringing my Trans-Gender condition out into the light of day was better than hiding it in the closet like a dirty evil secret--Which IT IS NOT.
MY being a girl is just a fact. I was born this way and I have always known it though society and loving well-meaning people conditioned me to deny it--even to myself.
All the people I love most-- My ex-wife My three dearest children. My Mother. My Father. My Sister. My brother's and the rest of the family. Nearly every one of my FRIENDS... ....You know THE really Important parts of one's life and soul all want me to either get well or get lost...With my most sacred supreme love of my life there is no hope at all. Nothing can bring love back with her.
To survive I don't know for sure what the right-the GOOD- course of action really is. I pray for guidance, strength, and hope for peace in my life. I pray to have the clarity to make the best decisions. I pray for GOD to show me in a way I can understand some way to help the world to serve humanity, to create art, beauty, and FUN.
I WILL put my life on the line to stop HATE of people who are doing what they have to do...Have a right to do...
PEOPLE who hate are more WRONG and EVIL than anything I have ever done or will even think of...YOU SEE ME on the STREET or in the LINE at the bank and you choose to show me HATE, or DISRESPECT... I am GOING TO point it out to you in front of GOD and everybody and I will throw LOVE back at you ...and the KHARMIC Consequences after that will be back on YOUR SHOULDERS. SO THERE!