Silence

Only when you fall deep into sleep
I come to sit really close to you
The faint moonlight from the window behind
casts a mountain range over your eyelids
They are my head and shoulders
You know I am not a big guy
only at moments like this I become a mountain
to block the wind from disturbing your dreams

I try to control my breath by practicing Yoga
But the closeness magnifies everything that vibrates
You may have dreamed of gusty winds
lightning strikes and thunder rolls
even hurricane and even tornado
Your tosses and moans twist my eyebrows
Only the night is as peaceful as peace can be

When all the drama unfolds
you are far, far away on the beach
I am deeply entangled with the treacherous sea
After a thousand and one attempts
I finally stand up on my keyboard
high on the tip of a monstrous wave
That triggers my fall, a hard, hard plunge
But you are too far to hear any smashing noises
Except the wailing of the ocean

My teeth become powdery while biting my lips
I also bite deep into the pain to make it dull
Yeah, I am smashed apiece and still refuse to moan
Please don't wait up for me, for I am not coming back
Sure, my soul, that ball of fog, will fly to you
casting a particular halo of glow over your head
and around your cheeks to brighten you day and night

April, 1997